Real intense desperation even before the clip starts
Hello there, I am sorry. I was not planning on doing it this way. I am sitting in my room but it's a mess. I wanted to clean it up but it took so long that I really can barely hold it anymore so I decided to turn on the camera just in case I burst like crazy before I am done preparing for the clip.
This is the most serious desperation I have had in months. I can't even get up. I sit on my heel and rock back and forth to fight a huge wave of urgency - and I didn't even start the clip yet!
Friends of mine would have peed their pants already. I can hold very well because I have been training since I was, as you might know from my bio.
This is all behind the scenes.. since I am really worried that each wave of 10/10 desperation could be the last one. I don't know if I can even make this.
So, you can watch me totally intimate, preparing my room. Something you normally don't get to see. Don't judge me on how and what I do and say because, I really can't think straight. I just need to piss like crazy right now. I concentrate on holding it, because I have a fun clip idea that I want to film.
Sorry for the yawning as well. If you know me, you know that it's part of my intense desperation. I can't help it.
Things get even more urgent
The desperation in this is incredible. I still can't believe I made it as far as I did. I held on to my pee for as long as I could and then some. I just fought to the very end.
So, my room is starting to look better but it all takes so long as I have to sit down and pause and close up my pee hole. I am filming all this rubbish just to have another motivation to keep it all in. You see me temper with the camera angle and everything. It's quite fun I guess because you normally don't get to see this. But this time, I really waited far too long after drinking a lot. I should have started earlier!
Close to bursting early
Around 14 minutes there is a huge wave that I almost can't overcome. And I am still wearing my clothes and sit on my heel full WITH additional crotch grabbing and I still lose some drops of pee. I leak a little into my pants.
The last thing I need before I can start the clip is something to tickle myself with.
Yes, I will tickle myself while massively desperate
Oh this is going to be fun. Or is it? Every step is a problem now. I can barely talk right and I need to blow my nose. This is a critical moment, because I could just lose it all from the pressure.
I go one time.. oh god.. I go 2 times.. ohh ohhh... I think I just soaked my pad. I go a third time.. okay. I think I am back in control.
The desperate undressing starts
Time to reveal this belly. I got a huge bulge and my bladder is hard already, I can just feel it in my belly. All these movements until I am naked just put pressure on my peehole.
Finally naked and in position, my pussy is already opening a little. It wants to pee so badly.
The cruel pee holding game begins
Only now? Yes, I can barely hold it anymore, but I want to do this. I throw balls of paper at cups. If I miss, I need to drink and tickle myself. If I hit 10(!) total, I can pee.
I miss the first shot and drink, because I am afraid of the tickle. I am SOOO ticklish. I scream and run even at the notion of someone trying to tickle me.
Second shot is a miss as well, now I tickle myself.. oh boy.. oh oh..
Third shot. I am so on a 9/10 now and bording leakage. Actually, we are only 23 minutes into the clip and I just leaked again. Better said, I held on like crazy while my pussy leaked on it's own.
Time to show my bladder. From the front and from the side. I crawl and moan with desperation. It's worse than I thought when I sit back down. I got my heels under my ass and my pussy is open, I just need to hit a cup now!
Drinking and drinking, can I reach 10?
I miss again, so I drink more water. What am I doing? I just feel my bladder stretching and the pee wanting to leak out. Tiny drops come out.
I miss another shot! Tickling time. Oh my GOSH. What did I start here? I wanted to hit 10 IN the cup before I am allowed to pee. This is crazy.
Wait until you see the ultimate struggle and explosion.
I'll end the description here so I don't spoil the game for you. I have never leaked for so long and still held on and on. So intense, hurting, but in a good way.
