You have it all wrong. You get confused. Lost in the fetish world. Like you are doing something bad, like you shouldn't be doing this at all. Paying to stare, to worship. You feel the need to get away sometimes, but you always come back. Today, you need to transform those thoughts and feelings into comfort and happiness. Into a total submissive bliss state for yourself. You need to be transformed. This isn't hu.rting you. This is all about embracing your weak side. Give in to the fetish worship world. Give in to this Goddess. No reason to hide anymore.