Truth be told, you are always trying to deny the truth. You will purge your panties, your bras, and your toys in exchange for "peace of mind". But, you never get it, do you? You're never quite comfortable unless your mind is wandering into forbidden territory.

You are a sissy.

You need to be reminded of that. Reminded why pussy is no longer for you. Reminded why every man, even the big, sweaty, bears are the ones you should be pleasing. Reminded why you fit in panties much easier than real men do. You need to learn to accept your path.