You've spent so much time on the internet jerking off over CBT and ballbusting videos. You love the look of joy the Mistress has while she's inflicting pain on a poor soul's gonads, but you just can't bring yourself to do it. You're scared.

You're scared, and yet you keep on jerking off to it. Finding yourself caught up in a deep porn spiral of genital masochism. Wishing you could be that good boy for your Mistress. Wishing you could offer your nuts as sacrifice for your Mistress' joy. Wishing you could see the smile on her face while she pummels your balls into nothingness.