You have been looking for purpose, for true arousal. It doesn't exist .. not in a perfect form at least .. unless you are worshipping Pixel. A loser like you needs to be used to feel the true submission of a beta bitch. And paying for Pixel's nonexistent, computer generated home will give you that true humiliation, pleasure, and fulfillment. Being teased and manipulated into doing so will only push you further into addiction. Enjoy ;)