You know what's hard about enduring something physically strenuous? It's enduring it without any pleasure. Pleasure distracts me from the pain, enhances the bondage and keeps me going and when Martin denies me of that attention, I quickly realize what he wants. This isn't for me... it's strictly for him.

He wants to keep me there and watch me. Watch me suffer for however long he wants. He wants me to be a good girl and not fuss or tap out. THAT'S what gives him pleasure. And what gives me pleasure is doing it for him <3