stop living a lie! you're not meant to be a manly man, put in charge to lead others. it's become so much work to keep up appearances of being "man enough" isn't it? And further, at this point it's just so disheartening. you lack motivation. there's no thrill in being the one in charge. you need to be under the control of a Dominant Goddess. let's compare the sad life as an ownerless, directionless ineffectual man- and the life you might have being My bitch!