Honestly, I kind of pity you. You're stuck in an awkward spot, aren't you? Not manly enough to be considered a man, not feminine enough to be a woman. You're just a pathetic little sissy. You lack the qualities needed on both sides so you're stuck trying your best to be the perfect little sissy. You've learned how to do your makeup, picked out cute little matching outfits and lingerie but it's still not good enough. No matter what you do or how hard you'll try you'll always just be a little sissy and nothing more.