In this self-realization clip, I tell you about some very real, lucid moments of reflection that I've had recently where I realize that we truly ruined me. We took me perfectly fit and toned body and destroyed it. I will NEVER be able to look that way again. I went from running marathons, figure skating, and crossfitting to barely being able to lift my fat ass off the couch. I used to have collar bones, visible ribs, and hip bones and now I'm so covered in fat that I have to rest propped up on 5 pillows at night.

As I talk through all of this, photos of me from when I was skinny cy... Show more