my bladder lump is already a little big, it grows a little more and my despair also grows, I can't take it anymore, I can't stop moving, my legs are shaking, I have to put my hand on my peehole, if I remove it I have leaks, finally I explode

my bladder lump is already a little big, it grows a little more and my despair also grows, I can't take it anymore, I can't stop moving, my legs are shaking, I have to put my hand on my peehole, if I remove it I have leaks, finally I explode