When I first started out, I was sure I could lose any weight that I gained. But I can't! I'm trapped by this big body that I've eaten myself into. In this video, I talk about my decision to become a feedee and the unintentional weight gain I've experienced recently. I talk about how my clothing size has changed, how my measurements are all increasing. And how it's impossible to find new clothing that I like, because they don't make fat girl clothing in my style!

I talk about how my daily routine contributes to my obesity. I laze around all day without any reason or motivation to ge...

When I first started out, I was sure I could lose any weight that I gained. But I can't! I'm trapped by this big body that I've eaten myself into. In this video, I talk about my decision to become a feedee and the unintentional weight gain I've experienced recently. I talk about how my clothing size has changed, how my measurements are all increasing. And how it's impossible to find new clothing that I like, because they don't make fat girl clothing in my style!

I talk about how my daily routine contributes to my obesity. I laze around all day without any reason or motivation to get back into shape. My feeder has created this "perfect" little cocoon of enablement and permissiveness, where I can be exactly as gluttonous as I would like, without a single thought of the consequences. I talked about a doctor visit that scared me into losing several pounds- and how I haven't gone back to the doctor because... I gained all that weight back!

I get a lot off my chest in this video- things about getting that I've never said online. The struggles . The embarrassment . How my best assets are now my biggest failings, and how my favorite features have become the ones I try to hide from sight. I reveal my heaviest weight , how much weight I lost after that, and how much weight I unintentionally re-gained.

I was that fit, confident , popular girl- pure eye candy- and now I'm a homely dumpling of a girl. Always hungry. Always begging for food. My floppy tits resting lazily on my belly. My toned butt disappearing into dimples of cellulite. The mighty have fallen. I've gone from an alpha to a beta in three short years. Now, I'm the fat friend- the one an average-weight girl brings along to make herself look thin. That's me! It's shocking . I'm trying to accept my new body but it's hard. I feel so pathetic and weak now! So out of control. I'm the arrogant, judgy gym bunny who finally succumbed to her own bad habits. My jawline disappeared, along with my collar bones, elbows, my waist line. They're all buried.