You are feeling something.. you don't know why you get turned on SO much when a woman is rude to you, or the girl you ask out turns you down. You're realizing you like being treated like the weak male you're realizing you are. You want to be treated like the loser you know you're supposed to be. It's ok. I understand it all. I'm going to ease you into the weak beta bitch you are. You're just starting out, but when I'm finished with you, you'll know EXACTLY where you stand and belong.