There is one thing that I can say with absolute certainty. That is that a cock sucker like you will always return to cock! Oh you might try to fool yourself and others and try to be "straight". But sooner or later you always return to cock. Often trying to justify it by shemales but it is about cock. that is what it is always about! cock is what gets you hard. cock is what you orgasm to. There is nothing else like feeling a real cock in your mouth, feeling that spurt! Hand wrapped around a hard cock, the salty precum and the feeling of erotic anticipation of your mouth filled with cum!