You were not born a porn monstrosity, you gooned yourself into one. You thought years of gooning to porn would not consume your personality but it has. The more years you have spent stroking, the less you feel capable of stopping. A porn monstrosity like you will never be satisfied knowing new porn is being produced every minute of every day waiting to be consumed. You need to keep collecting, watching, gooning to and buying more porn. Porn is the only personality you have left.