You are straight. You've been craving cock for such a long time. Sucking cock is not gay. It's not gay at all. You want cock, you need cock. You're straight. It's not gay to suck cock. Watch your favorite porn and stroke to those big cock you've been craving for. The first time you saw cock you were mesmerized, you've been obsessed ever since.

Stroke and repeat after me:
Stroking to pussy is gay.
Stroking to cock is not.

Trust me, no one is ever going to think you're gay because you stroke to cock. Stroking to cock is you being a straight man.