You are so addicted to humiliation and have done things that have shocked you. Over time it has become harder for you to get off and you start to need more and more humiliation. One day you will go overboard with what you have to do to get off, because it won't be enough to get you off. It gets hard for you to cum now doesn't it? Eventually you won't even get hard. You'll have to go out in the street and jerk off. Maybe you used to be normal, but now you're all fucked up because you've been doing this for so long.