You're already in so deep now, loser. But I know how finsub brains work. It feels so good until you regret all the sends you made and you try to pull away. But you're fucking weak. You can't actually ever escape. No matter how many times you try to quit, you'll always fall back into this. You know that this is the only way for you to be useful, the greatest pleasure you experience, and a permanent fixture in your sex life. Just embrace it. Understand, completely and deeply, that you'll always come back so there's no point in fighting it.