How can you ever expect someone to love you when you literally hate yourself. you know how unworthy you are, how repulsive you are. you can't really expect someone to overlook that when even you can't?! Instead you just sit and sulk in your own self hatred and jerk away until you forget. Until you go numb. you're constantly reminded of how disgusting you are and now you can't unsee it. Just shut up and jerk,