No it's not normal to want the attention of a bitchy Woman so badly. It's not normal to shell out wads of cash for that bitchy Woman to notice you. Oh and it's not normal to want Her to humiliate you. To want to be made to feel like a smart little bitch worm by Her hahaha. Then again, most addiction aren't normal. Most addiction have you wanting a fix no matter how stupid you look or feel in the process ahhahah