She's holding you back. I know you feel it. How restricted and empty you feel inside. She's nice but She isn't Me. She can't make you feel the way I do and you see that. It's time for you to stop going back ad forth. you've weighed the pros and cons and I always come out on top. It's so obvious what you should do next. The gain is far to great to continue passing it up. Yes, she'll be out of the picture... but what you gain in return is SO much better.