Look at what you've completely thrown down the drain. you've let a lot go to waste. you should be ashamed of yourself. So many out there would have made so much more out of a life like yours. Oh no, this isn't a "wake up" call. It's too late for that. you sucked at the life you were given so now you'll be leading a brand new life that's more your tempo. It's exactly on your level. you want to lead a filthy life, so that's just what you'll be doing.