You must feel so humiliated, being so sexually frustrated you have to jerk off five times a day. You haven't gotten laid in so long, and I don't think that will be changing any time soon. Part of me thinks you enjoy being denied. It gets you off to be humiliated, so you ruin any chance you might get at being with a woman. I have a feeling you're going to be in a monogamous relationship with your hand for the rest of your life!