I am going to help you. Is helping you in your best interests or mine, that is another question, but god knows, you need help. So if I were you, I would take a chance and dive in anyway, because, lets face it, I am the best help you've got right now
Your self imposed masculinity is poisoning your existence. You need to let it all drain out of your system and let yourself be free for the burden of being anywhere close to a masculine man. I'm going to help you do that.