Your obsession is not healthy. It is destructive. It is intrusive. You are a mindless slave to your obsession. You possibly may not realize it but it will do you in. Your compulsive obsession to be taken under the control. It clouds your judgement, your rational decision making is absent at this point. You have to fill the void, drawn again and again, to your addiction, to your most urgent need to give in.

You may have to seek out help. I may help you. I may help to guide you deeper. I may have selfish interests in mind.. but I may help you. It's the first step to admitting that yo... Show more