"Therefore I say to you, any sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men, but blasphemy against the Spirit shall not be forgiven. And whoever shall speak a word against the "sun" of Man, it shall be forgiven him; but whoever shall speak against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, either in this age, or in the age to come." God loves you unconditionally, with a few conditions. You have already forsaken the Holy Spirit and you've also insulted it. This is an Unforgivable Sin to the highest degree and you are guilty of this forever. You can never go back to God now that you've fucked up...

"Therefore I say to you, any sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven men, but blasphemy against the Spirit shall not be forgiven. And whoever shall speak a word against the "sun" of Man, it shall be forgiven him; but whoever shall speak against the Holy Spirit, it shall not be forgiven him, either in this age, or in the age to come." God loves you unconditionally, with a few conditions. You have already forsaken the Holy Spirit and you've also insulted it. This is an Unforgivable Sin to the highest degree and you are guilty of this forever. You can never go back to God now that you've fucked up this bad. You tried to go back knowing fully well that you weren't going to feel God inside that church anymore. You were afraid though and I understand fear and will show you mercy. I forgive you for the actions you took when you were afraid, you can come back....see how easy that was? What kind of creator can't do that for you? Too easy, he just set you up to fall right into my grasp.