You have been too afraid to act on the urges you feel, or simply unable to get in the right mindset while watching my videos. I understand. The brain is very powerful and you have had years of conditioning teaching you to fear women like me and fear the obedience you wish for. A mind like yours needs help from the outside. Take a shot 10 minutes before watching and every other time I say so. By the end you will be less afraid and ready to play your part.