I'm so proud of you for doing all the things you've agonized over for so long, and for living a life that's a more authentic version of your truth. You've met up with men online, taken a dildo, dressed in your feminine clothing, and you're feeling very proud of yourself. Let's talk about the ways that you might live even more authentically, and live a life that will bring you job. Stretching your slutty hole is just one way you can continue on this path, so you can be used like the slut you are, but there are some emotional needs to tend to as well.