After a long day of stressing over my first date, with someone new today...and hours of getting ready...I've decided that I just can't handle the pressure. So I have decided to stay home, and passively aggressively ignore my phone instead...I mean I am sure he will hook up with someone else at the bar anyways, right? My will probably tell me that I am "self sabotaging" again, but maybe I can just "forget" to mention it to her.It beats telling him that I have diarrhea, just to make him not like me any longer...? God only knows what this date could lead to...I just can't handle the unspoken tens...

After a long day of stressing over my first date, with someone new today...and hours of getting ready...I've decided that I just can't handle the pressure. So I have decided to stay home, and passively aggressively ignore my phone instead...I mean I am sure he will hook up with someone else at the bar anyways, right? My will probably tell me that I am "self sabotaging" again, but maybe I can just "forget" to mention it to her.It beats telling him that I have diarrhea, just to make him not like me any longer...? God only knows what this date could lead to...I just can't handle the unspoken tension...what if he is thinking marriage...what if he has a family that he wants me to meet OH MY GOD....I have no choice but to stay home, where I am safe! SO I am just gonna chill, in my mini dress, drink soda, and play computer games instead. Nothing good ever comes of dating anyways....this seems like the more mature and realistic thing to do :) No point in bothering with panties at this point in the game!