You are addicted to relapsing. No matter how long you stay away, you always come back. It doesn't matter if its been a week, a month, or a few months, you always find yourself coming back and giving in to findom. You find yourself sending more every time you cave to your addiction. The longer you deprive yourself of what you really want, the harder you fall when you do come back. You find yourself in this vicious cycle. Send it all, delete your account, and come back for more yet again. You can't help it. Quitting was never in the cards for you.