Your whole pathetic life, you've been so bullied and rejected by girls like me, it had to literally turned into a fantasy so you wouldn't end up traumatised by the amount of rejection you've been experiencing. Now, if a woman would to be ever interested in you, it would turn you off.
What turns you on is being shown your place, being reminded that you're nothing but a loser to be taken advantage of. That's great since it's so natural for Me to treat you that way.