Everything you do is basically centered around masturbation- and only masturbation. Even if you have intercourse, it doesn't feel as good, and you think about being dominated in order to finish. Your sexuality is completely rewired and you would rather watch FemDom humiliation porn than actual porn. Let me show you. Does it not seem as if you feel compelled to jerk as if you were on the verge of losing your life when I talk and tease you?
Don't try to hide your jerk off existence from yourself.