Perhaps it hasn't been easy, but a challenge isn't supposed to be. It's meant to push you further than you ever thought you could go before. you need to hear these encouraging words from Me, your Mistress, your purpose, your reason for doing all of this. you wouldn't do this by yourself. Not only does it feel meaningless without a Mistress, it wouldn't be as HOT or exciting. I could tell you that you don't really have to do this, but you WANT to. you want THIS.