you binge, you run away, you return with your tail between your legs and you cock in your hand. That is not what you planned to do but it is a repeated cycle with you, My runaway.
I have a sure method that will give you the security that you crave in the Femdom world while still serving Me. The only "downside" to that would be not getting to jerkoff...but that only gets you in deeper trouble anyways. Let Me help you