your subservient demeanor is just a way of life for a beta loser like you. Now somehow you've made it into My side of the world not to be useful or anything but just to lurk, like you have done with everything else in life. Sit on the sidelines and passively ask to be blessed with My presence while doing nothing to earn it. Even though I am mean to you you will still jerk off because you're used to people treating you exactly how you deserve.