I need to talk to you, loser, about your sexuality. You know every single adult has one. In your case, though, given all your weird kinks and fetishes, that is a special kind. No real man gets off on being insulted, degraded and humiliated. You absolutely have to feel like a piece of shlte to get off. Even though you sometimes end feeling guilty for being this disgusting, you cannot control these cravings. Your dick goes every time when you have to perform a "normal" sex act.