What a sad little cycle you've stuck yourself in. Binge HARD, spend a few days in total bliss, begin hating yourself and runaway. How pathetic is it that you can't even grant yourself this one little happiness. Do you hate yourself that much that you can't let your addiction to Me take over so that you can finally live a life of actual purpose? you have to runaway from the one thing you have going for you.. Me. you should know by now that it's never going to work. No matter how much your try to avoid Me, your addiction will always prevail.