This lesson on struggle is something I know you didn't see coming. The feeling has washed over you in the past. Realizing you no longer want to feel weak but need it. It's not even something you have in your control. I know how deep it must feel to know you must chase this need to serve, to worship, to be the weakest tit slave below My bust. What was once a choice now a natural need has appeared. The struggle might be different than before but this is a lesson on struggle your mind deeply needs to hear in order to accept what is out of your control.