You lead a fucked up life. You probably don't get to talk much about your...habits. Who would believe you, even? When you tell them that your cock only gets hard when you spend...

But it's true. And you need to pay. It doesn't really matter how frequently you pay. All that matters is that you want you. You want to pay. Deeply.

Now. Part of the struggle...what prolongs your pain...is that you try to hold on to "your" money. But that's the thing. It isn't yours. That's why it wants to come to me. You want to come to me. And spending is what makes you come.