The erotic Blackmail-Fantasy is much more than a sexually motivated desire for you isn't it? It has now become a need, an urge, a deeply rooted subconscious yearning. I understand why you simply remain in this hell loop of fixating on the fantasy, jerking off to the illusion of it happening to you but never actually tasting the beauty found from freedom and constraint. The reason you do not take within your grasp what you truly desire is because of fear isn't it? Fear that things will quickly spiral beyond your control, go too far. But, that's ok, I equally know that this fear aspect feeds ... Show more