There is nothing more pathetic than a beta loser that can only get off while verbally by hot women. That's why you hate yourself. Guess what? I hate you too.Your life is so sad, but at least these humiliation sessions give you some sort of sexual release. Humping your hand to my cruelty is the closest thing you will ever get to a sex life. Your loser-gasms allow you a short break from feeling like a constant failure at everything, they help you forget as well as accept your reality. You need this to cope.