You've been eating your own Cum for a while now and while you enjoy it you're not a true cum eater yet. Anyone can eat their own cum when they still have the euphoric feeling through your body, a true cum eater will wait till that feeling leaves. When you finally allow the calm to come back and return your breathing back to normal in that moment is when you will lick up the mess you made and allow it to travel down your throat. Only then will you be a true cum eater