you've always had this self-destructive quality in you. you're not sure why, but every time something goes smoothly in your life, you have this undeniable urge to mess everything up. you want Me to have dirt on you, to have a way to control you. Sure I can do that with My perfect body, but it's much more fun to have blackmail on you. I have a fun little task for you to complete. It will be amusing for Me and detrimental for you.