Give up on the hope of an orgasm, you've made them way too important, way to goal oriented on such a fleeting and weak moment, it's time to reprioritize the pleasure, the journey, the edging, the desperation, the loss of control. When you base pleasure on an orgasm, on a weak splooge you're bound to be dissapointed, you're bound to feel empty. But when you reprioritize edging, tantric, mindless edging, you'll feel the ultimate pleasure, enter The Goon Mindset, you must feel the loss of control take over, the pleasure take over and the goon overpower everything.