You knew marriage wasn't for you from the start, but you're a selfish prick. Leading a woman on for years just to fill the void of "normal" for you is so fucking gross. Marriage was a mistake, a HUGE mistake. Divorce is the only option. You've known that, but you're such a pussy. Consider this your catalyst to finally begin the process of being a lone loser. You don't deserve a wife or a perceived normal life. You deserve to be treated and manipulated like the beta bitch that you are. Divorce her, bitch.