You are garbage. You are a complete fucking waste of space. You are worth nothing to this world. It is actually an insult for you to be alive. You are a net negative on everyone that comes into contact with you. The way I see it, you have two choices. You either can stay at home at all times. Watching clips, having all your food and life necessities delivered to you and not interacting with any other human. Or you can end it. You can just fucking yourself. That is what I suggest. You honestly don't deserve to live anymore.