One of the many reasons your obsession with Me continues to grow is your virginity. you have nothing but Me. you have no past experiences to reminisce on. you have no dates lined up to look forward to, all hopeful. you have nothing besides Me and your hand. It's gotten so bad that you now aren't turned on by vanilla sex. you're only turned on by the denial, the humiliation of being a pathetic virgin bitch that can't stop stroking to a woman way out of his league. you would be lost without Me and we both know it.