You have always had gay feelings and urges, but you have been hesitant and afraid to explore them. I am here you encourage you and tell you that it's okay to enjoy these feelings. I know you want to!
I think it's time that you fully embrace these gay feelings and take the next logical steps. Allow your mind to fully give into your feelings, don't fight them!
I know you need a nice big cock, the idea has been teasing you for years. Listen to me and allow yourself to give in.