Dear Diary, I must get this off my chest. I can't tell him, or anyone else. It's about my boyfriend. He's... well, he's just so average. He's not really hot, he's not sexy, his cock isn't too big or too small, he's just...meh. And lately, I've been feeling like our sex life is missing something. I think it's time I took control to create some excitement. I'm going to control his orgasms and cock, and make him feel something again. I can't wait to tease him, being a cock tease is so exciting.

Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy. He's kind, he's caring, and he treats me well. But so...

Dear Diary, I must get this off my chest. I can't tell him, or anyone else. It's about my boyfriend. He's... well, he's just so average. He's not really hot, he's not sexy, his cock isn't too big or too small, he's just...meh. And lately, I've been feeling like our sex life is missing something. I think it's time I took control to create some excitement. I'm going to control his orgasms and cock, and make him feel something again. I can't wait to tease him, being a cock tease is so exciting.

Don't get me wrong, he's a great guy. He's kind, he's caring, and he treats me well. But sometimes, I just want more. I want fireworks. I want passion. I want...something different. I know I sound like a terrible person. Like I'm not grateful for what I have. But it's not that. It's just that... I don't want to settle for mediocrity. I don't want to wake up one day and realize I've spent my whole life with someone who's just...average. Maybe he needs some humiliation to spice things up. Maybe he needs some jerk off instruction or some cock tease. There are so many options.

He is never going to be the adventurous, exciting guy that I want him to be. That's just not who he is. But that doesn't mean I can't have the kind of sex I want. I've decided that I'm going to take the lead. I know he can be a bit indecisive at times, but that's where I come in. I'm going to show him new things and push him out of his comfort zone. I've also decided that I need to take control in the bedroom. He's just so... vanilla. I want to explore more, try new things, and take our sex life to the next level.

It's time for me to step up and take charge. He may be boring, but that doesn't mean our relationship has to be. I think I'll start by telling him how to stroke his cock, controlling his orgasms, and teasing him more. Maybe that will make things more exciting and adventurous. Maybe we'll both feel alive again. That would be a fun change of pace.