You made it to December and thought it was so wonderful at first to finally get to feel the sweet release of orgasm again. Only you're getting a bit carried away now, aren't you? You spent so long being frustrated in denial that now you can't stop stroking at your dick. You're beating your dick raw, your hand sore and aching, but you keep destroying your dick despite this. Clearly you can't be trusted with control over your own orgasms and soon you'll be begging me to take ownership of them once again.